And you were down... ?

Ever got to the point where you don't even know if you are down or not? To put a word to it I would say limbo.... Yet again I don't even know if that would be the correct term. I mean there is so much wrong out there, you want to somehow fix... But most of all that's just a way you tell your self you need help. Well that's where I am right now; I'm in this point where everything bounces back at me. I really want to forget my problems and concentrate on studying (or w/e) but the simply idea of having a problems puts me in front of this computer to type this post.

Well its not like my habits are helping, I just want to have fun or sometimes relax so much more over school... I really wonder if its true but thoughts like "if i didn't have so much pressure it would be different, I wouldn't feel like relaxing, I would get up early and do that website I’ve been wanting to do so badly, do something beyond my imagination." or even taking my chance in a little romance... - that’s another topic thats in the limbo - who knows... for now all I can do is write this note to help me understand that its all in my head, and that if i don't make up my mind and sit down infront of my desk and study, I’m going to fail tomorrow and then things will only get worse.

What is there to learn from this? well not sure how much you can learn from the outside. But in the inside, I can learn that I think a lot different then how I act, that is why I should overcome my desires, and do what I want or in this case need to do. Stupid society... stupid standards...

Quote: "If a person lives in a standard way, then that persons live isn't his own." - Me/anime

(do you agree that people don't naturally want to live social standards?)